I need to put this somewhere because I keep going in circles. I got my results. I know what I got. And for the last month I have wanted Medicine, then talked myself out of it, then wanted it again, then found five reasons why it's unrealistic, then woke up the next morning and wanted it again. The worst part is I don't know if I'm being realistic or if I'm just scared. And I can't tell the difference anymore. They feel identical from the inside.

I need to put this somewhere because I keep going in circles. I got my results. I know what I got. And for the last month I have wanted Medicine, then talked myself out of it, then wanted it again, then found five reasons why it's unrealistic, then woke up the next morning and wanted it again. The worst part is I don't know if I'm being realistic or if I'm just scared. And I can't tell the difference anymore. They feel identical from the inside.